Bad Kitty

yea i know...been gone forever... sorry.... lotsa crazy junk happenin;

for some reason the mood struck me to make an avatar in yahoo... i searched and searched to make mine just right... well i found the hair, the eyes, clothes, backgrounds, accessories, even a pet or two if i wanted... but they were all stick thin! Where are the chubby options, yahoo??? C'mon!

I haven't written a lot lately because my life has gone to the crappers... and i hate writing about crap... but... i do have some new art... I am still working on it, but here is what I have so far...

this weekend has been super fun... other than the fact that something in me is a drama magnet... anywayz... i got smashed at lance's birthday party and ended up staying all weekend... it was kickastic!

stolen from k2cro4

1. You can only say YES or NO.
2. You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages you / comments and asks! So then ask me questions!!!
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1. Taken a picture naked? Yes
!!!!!2. Painted your room? yes
!!!!!3. Made out with a member of the same sex? yes
4. Drove a car? Yes
5. Danced in front of your mirror? Yes
6. Have a crush? Yes
!!!!!7. Been dumped? no
8. Stole money from friend? No
9. Gotten in a car with people you just met? Yes
10. Been in a fist fight? Yes

I feel like a fool today... a shit fool... ever heard of a shit fool? well, now u have, and I am one.

My ex is... still living with me, and thinks i'm in love with my other ex... as the soupy turns... 

Maybe I should... actually finish something I start, I mean it's like th

I love... my little boo boo, skyball, look at those rosy cheeks!

I finished my first novel then promptly lost it when I was 19. My computer crashed then my dad decided not to pay rent on our storage shed which held my file cabinet. Anyway, that novel was called The Town Whore ... yea maybe not a marketable title, but it was something.

The story is based loosely on experiences of several girls I've known. (I've moved from state-to-state, town-to-town my whole life.) These were all girls who were known as the town whore/slut etc. I was fascinated to find, when talking to them, that they had all lived very similiar lives. The crazy thing was that I had much in common with some of their experiences.

People look down on the easy girl, talk about her as if she's garbage. I've been guilty of it myself. Well, after hearing so many heart breaking and scarily similiar stories to my own life, I realised

I finally gave in today and went with Buddy to one of his clients house. His client's wife wanted to meet me for a while now, because she doesn't know anyone here, and we're about the same age. I have not gone up until now for several reasons, the biggest of which is because Buddy basically told me I had to go... and umm... well... if someone asks me to do something, I'll almost always oblige, but telling me to do something doesn't get it...

I open my eyes, my naked body bathed in the morning sunlight. It is in this one
waking moment that nothing exists in my mind beyond existence. I am simply there. I am
alive. I am breathing.

I walked with my sister thru an apartment complex. It felt familiar, but everything was a little off-kilter. The buildings were wide at the top and narrow at the bottom. If Doctor Seuss was a brick-layer, these would have been his creations.

We walked hand-in-hand in the moonlight until we reached a dark staircase. At the top of the staircase, a room stood open. Inside, lights were flashing and loud hip-hop music blared. I felt a sense of foreboding as we neared the party. I loosed my sister’s hand and peered into the room.

Inside people danced. Their bodies writhed with the music and seemed to move in slow motion. They seemed to be young, college age. They wore regular clothes, jeans and t-shirts, but their faces were covered in thickly feathered masks.

-to be continued in friends

Well, ladies and gentlemen, it's official, we're headed out west, mountains-bound... i've put most of my stuff on a big table in the yard, and i'm selling it cheap. So far I've made about 200 bucks. more later.. somethin' just came up...

okay, i'm back (BIG WHOO HOOEY!) anywayz, so the what I was saying before...

I am, once again, dropping everything and moving away... this time i am taking one of my bogger leaps, traveling across the belly of america on to it's butt. the place is beautiful fromt he pics i've found online, and i am really looking forward to shaking the dust of this shit-ass town offa my feet.

the thing i hate about it is... (more in friends)

the good things are plenty, too, tho. I have a job just waiting for me there, and the manager told me she's looking for someone to take with her to the new hotel that is being built. she basically told me that if i am personable and dependable then I am going to be groomed for higher positions.

i don't know if i am wanting to go into all of that, but this job is basically an easy gig, its low stress 3rd shift which will give me time for school in the day and will still giv eme plenty of time with sky- and that is my number one issue!

hey there... i posted a bunch of the art that i've been doing lately. i am experimenting quite a bit with color and technique and starting to get excited about drawing again!