Bad Kitty

Mon, 07 Aug 2006 06:40:14 GMT

yea i know...been gone forever... sorry.... lotsa crazy junk happenin;

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Wed, 26 Apr 2006 08:16:23 GMT

for some reason the mood struck me to make an avatar in yahoo... i searched and searched to make mine just right... well i found the hair, the eyes, clothes, backgrounds, accessories, even a pet or two if i wanted... but they were all stick thin! Where are the chubby options, yahoo??? C'mon!

Ok so here i am again...

Wed, 26 Apr 2006 02:54:34 GMT

I haven't written a lot lately because my life has gone to the crappers... and i hate writing about crap... but... i do have some new art... I am still working on it, but here is what I have so far...

Type your cut contents here.

funfunfun

Mon, 17 Apr 2006 02:45:18 GMT

this weekend has been super fun... other than the fact that something in me is a drama magnet... anywayz... i got smashed at lance's birthday party and ended up staying all weekend... it was kickastic!

It's freaky how close this fits me...

Thu, 13 Apr 2006 15:23:50 GMT

What type of Fae are you?

yes N no

Thu, 06 Apr 2006 07:41:09 GMT

stolen from k2cro4

1. You can only say YES or NO.
2. You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages you / comments and asks! So then ask me questions!!!
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1. Taken a picture naked? Yes
!!!!!2. Painted your room? yes
!!!!!3. Made out with a member of the same sex? yes
4. Drove a car? Yes
5. Danced in front of your mirror? Yes
6. Have a crush? Yes
!!!!!7. Been dumped? no
8. Stole money from friend? No
9. Gotten in a car with people you just met? Yes
10. Been in a fist fight? Yes

11. Snuck out of your house? Yes
12. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? Yes
13. Been arrested? No
14. Made out with a stranger? Yes
15. Met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere? Yes
16. Left your house with out telling your parents? Yes
!!!!!17. Had a crush on your neighbor? yes
18. Ditched school to do something more fun? Yes
19. Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex? Yes
20. Seen someone die? Yes
21. Been on a plane? Yes
22. Kissed a picture? Yes
23. Slept in until 3PM? Yes
24. Love someone or miss someone right now? Yes
25. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? Yes
!!!!!26. Made a snow angel? yes
!!!!!27. Played dress up? yes
!!!!!28. Cheated while playing a game? yes
29. Been lonely? Yes
!!!!!30. Fallen asleep at work/school? yes
31. Been to a club? Yes
32. Felt an earthquake? Yes
!!!!!33. Touched a snake? yes
34. Ran a red light? Yes
35. Been suspended from school? Yes
36. Had detention? Yes
!!!!!37. Been in a car accident? yes
38. Hated the way you look? Yes
39. Witnessed a crime? Yes
!!!!!40. Pole danced? yes
!!!!!41. Been lost? yes
42. Been to the opposite side of the country? No
43. Felt like dying? Yes
!!!!!44. Cried yourself to sleep? yes
!!!!!46. Sang karaoke? yes
47. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? Yes
48. Laughed till some kind of beverage came out of your nose? Yes
49. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? Yes
!!!!!50. Kissed in the rain? yes
51. Sing in the shower? Yes
!!!!!52. Made love in a park? yes
53. Had a dream that you married someone? No
54. Glued your hand to something? No
55. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? No
56. Ever gone to school partially naked? No
!!!!!57. Been a cheerleader? yes
!!!!!58. Sat on a roof top? yes
59. Didn't take a shower for a week? Yes
!!!!60. Ever too scared to watch scary movies alone? yes
61. Played chicken? Yes
62. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? No
63. Been told you're hot by a complete stranger? Yes
!!!!!64. Broken a bone? no
65. Been easily amused? Yes
!!!!!66. Laugh so hard you cry? yes
67. Mooned/flashed someone? Yes
68. Cheated on a test? No
69. Forgotten someone's name? Yes
70. Slept naked? Yes
71. Gone skinny dipping in a pool? No
73. Blacked out from drinking? Yes
74. Played a prank on someone? Yes
!!!!!75. Gone to a late night movie? yes
76. Made love to anything not human? No
77. Failed a class? Yes
78. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat? No
79. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours? Yes
80. Cheated on a girl/boyfriend? Yes
81. Did you celebrate the 4th of July? No
82. Thrown strange objects? Yes
83. Felt like killing someone? Yes
84. Thought about running away? Yes
!!!!!85. Ran away? yes
86. Did drugs? Yes
87. Had detention and not attend it? No
89. Made a parent cry? Yes
90. Cried over someone? Yes
91. Owned more than 5 sharpies? No
!!!!92. Dated someone more than once? yes
93. Have a dog? No
94. Own an instrument? Yes
95. Been in a band? Yes
96. Drank 25 sodas in a day? No
97. Broken a cd? Yes
98. Shot a gun? Yes

April's Fools

Sun, 02 Apr 2006 12:54:10 GMT

I feel like a fool today... a shit fool... ever heard of a shit fool? well, now u have, and I am one.

ok so i am back in SC. This is where my husband lives. (I want to call him an ex, but we aren't divorced yet.) The idiot is still exactly the same as he always was. He's a big, hairy kid. He can be boyishly charming, just to flip into a boyishly spoiled brat.

Oh well... the day went ok. I won't let him take sky alone, which totally pisses him off, but listen to this;

His girlfriend, who is basically a nice person that loves kids, has another boyfriend whom she was speaking to throughout our entire day together. We played at at the BK playground, and she looked thru Ant's cell phone and found out he has at least 3 girlfriends who he loves. She called the main girl, and pretended to be me for some reason... which sux...Oh lordy!

This shit is crazy.

Like I said before, everything went okay most of the day. Sky and Ant played together. Sky calls him Pop-pop or poppy. He enjoyed himself.

Then we headed out to a local mexican place for kareoke. This is a favorite haunt of all of Ant's family. On the way there, I mentioned that I need monney for diapers, and the shit hit the fan.

Asshole.

I have no right to get into HIS business, blah blah blah...

Looks like I am going to have to go thru the courts, or I am going to be screwed.

stuff

Thu, 23 Mar 2006 08:49:59 GMT

My ex is... still living with me, and thinks i'm in love with my other ex... as the soupy turns...

Maybe I should... actually finish something I start, I mean it's like th

I love... my little boo boo, skyball, look at those rosy cheeks!

I don't understand... why an intelligent person can still hate so blindly

I lost... my wallet. I didn't know I lost it till the dude who wanted to buy my couch at my yard sale found it between the cushions.

People say I'm... i dunno, and i don't wanna know!

Love is... worth the pain.

Somewhere, someone is... reading this right now... oh it's you isn't it??

I will always... remember to keep a little childishness no matter how old i get.

Forever is... a beautiful word that doesn't mean a thing once it's spoken.

I never want to... eat a whole baby squid, but if i am in showing-off mode i'll do it anyway.

I think the current President... is named george somethin' or other.

When I wake up in the morning, I first say to myself... is it worth gettin' up yet?

My life is full of... high ups and steep downs.

My past was incredibly... shitty and cool at the same time.

I get annoyed when... i'm hormonal.

Parties are... cool when the mood hits.

Kisses are the worst when... they come both unbidden and unwanted

Kisses are the best when... you're finally kissin' those lips you've only imagined kissin'.

Tomorrow I'm going to... head to SC, i hope.

I really want... to connect with people in some way.

I have low tolerance... for dumb-asses and people who are easily offended..

If I had a million dollars... I'd buy you a monkey... haven't you always wanted a monKEY?

About Town Whore

Tue, 21 Mar 2006 14:53:48 GMT

I finished my first novel then promptly lost it when I was 19. My computer crashed then my dad decided not to pay rent on our storage shed which held my file cabinet. Anyway, that novel was called The Town Whore ... yea maybe not a marketable title, but it was something.

The story is based loosely on experiences of several girls I've known. (I've moved from state-to-state, town-to-town my whole life.) These were all girls who were known as the town whore/slut etc. I was fascinated to find, when talking to them, that they had all lived very similiar lives. The crazy thing was that I had much in common with some of their experiences.

People look down on the easy girl, talk about her as if she's garbage. I've been guilty of it myself. Well, after hearing so many heart breaking and scarily similiar stories to my own life, I realised

that more of us than we'd like to admit might have been a few steps from being that girl.

Anyway, I am re-examining the story I wrote. It's one that details rape and molestation, so please don't read if that's gonna piss u off. I feel that, having been thru many of these experiences myself, I have the right to detail the sights, smells, fear, love, hate, pain, and ectasy of the horror that is child rape.

It will be written in a blunt style, characteristic of the girls with whom I have conversed. It won't be pretty. I'll make an excerpt public here since it doesn't tell much, but the actual drafts will be a friends only thing.

It'll will also be a rough draft, no editing. My writing method is to think about exactly what I want in a story, perhaps write a loose outline to keep me on track. Then I write a quick version of the that covers the basics of the plot.

After I complete the rough draft, I pick thru it carefully. I add details, etc. Then I send the whole thing off to a proofreader who will mutilate it further.

I suppose the point I am putting here is that this is going to be far from perfect. I appreciate any comments, crits, suggestions you may all have, but grammer/spelling stuff will just be a waste of time at this point. I am going to save all of the Town Whore stuff in a sister blog here.

okay, enough introduction... here's a very short excerpt from the old story to get you started. It is all that survives of the old story, one of my experiments, writing like I thought my character might. (I decided against that after a few pages) Well my girl has grown a lot since this was written (almost 10 years ago) but it still gives u a bit of the flavor of the story.

Ant Hill

Mon, 20 Mar 2006 10:34:53 GMT

I finally gave in today and went with Buddy to one of his clients house. His client's wife wanted to meet me for a while now, because she doesn't know anyone here, and we're about the same age. I have not gone up until now for several reasons, the biggest of which is because Buddy basically told me I had to go... and umm... well... if someone asks me to do something, I'll almost always oblige, but telling me to do something doesn't get it...

Well, like I said, i relented and went. The chick was a really great girl. We had a good time together. We have a lot in common, too. She's like a few months older than me and her and her husband have 8 years between them. Buddy is eight years older than me. We bitched about how bossy old guys try to be and laughed about the lack of sex in comparison with younger guys. We also talked up the pros and how nice it was to be with someone dependable who didn;t cheat and worked hard, yadda yadda yadda.

I downed a few beers, and acted the fool with her while we went to the store for more beers. It was cool. Buddy had told her the reason I hadn't come before is that I am really shy with new people. She said she was really surprised to find me so personable.

I guess that is something he believes, which goes to show you how much he doesn't know me. Actually, I am very outgoing and make friends easily. The thing is that I am pickier with choosing my friends every since I walked in one day to find one of them... >>>continued in friends...

Anyway, Sky was like, 2 weeks old at the time, maybe less. I took him and myself out of town for a few days. All the way to Miami.

I fell in love with Miami's beaches! Up until then, I'd only seen grey beaches, so I was amazed at the turquoise waters I encountered there. So beautiful. Sky and I slept together on the beach. I have a pic of that somewhere. I'll have to put it on here...

Living Art- nightmare

Sat, 18 Mar 2006 01:36:41 GMT

I walked with my sister thru an apartment complex. It felt familiar, but everything was a little off-kilter. The buildings were wide at the top and narrow at the bottom. If Doctor Seuss was a brick-layer, these would have been his creations.

We walked hand-in-hand in the moonlight until we reached a dark staircase. At the top of the staircase, a room stood open. Inside, lights were flashing and loud hip-hop music blared. I felt a sense of foreboding as we neared the party. I loosed my sister’s hand and peered into the room.

Inside people danced. Their bodies writhed with the music and seemed to move in slow motion. They seemed to be young, college age. They wore regular clothes, jeans and t-shirts, but their faces were covered in thickly feathered masks.

-to be continued in friends

go west young man

Thu, 16 Mar 2006 18:26:14 GMT

Well, ladies and gentlemen, it's official, we're headed out west, mountains-bound... i've put most of my stuff on a big table in the yard, and i'm selling it cheap. So far I've made about 200 bucks. more later.. somethin' just came up...

okay, i'm back (BIG WHOO HOOEY!) anywayz, so the what I was saying before...

I am, once again, dropping everything and moving away... this time i am taking one of my bogger leaps, traveling across the belly of america on to it's butt. the place is beautiful fromt he pics i've found online, and i am really looking forward to shaking the dust of this shit-ass town offa my feet.

the thing i hate about it is... (more in friends)

the good things are plenty, too, tho. I have a job just waiting for me there, and the manager told me she's looking for someone to take with her to the new hotel that is being built. she basically told me that if i am personable and dependable then I am going to be groomed for higher positions.

i don't know if i am wanting to go into all of that, but this job is basically an easy gig, its low stress 3rd shift which will give me time for school in the day and will still giv eme plenty of time with sky- and that is my number one issue!

jazzie, sky, and robbie

Sun, 12 Mar 2006 06:41:10 GMT

drawin' and stuff

Sat, 11 Mar 2006 20:27:09 GMT

hey there... i posted a bunch of the art that i've been doing lately. i am experimenting quite a bit with color and technique and starting to get excited about drawing again!

Sex and Video Tape

Thu, 12 Jan 2006 22:44:09 GMT

It began with a narrarator asking the watching audience a serious question. It boomed out of our Rent-A-Center Sony like the voice of God.

"DO YOU KNOW HOW BABIES ARE MADE?"

I had a few vague ideas on the subject. I was convinced it involved kissing and penises and breasts. I was more certain about the involvement of penises and breasts because they were words that made my Dad's face go red anytime I said them. Strangely enough the word vagina hadn't found it's way into my vast 11 year old vocabulary, or it would have doubtless reared its ugly head (hehe) into many conversations as well.

The video continued, God's voice had gone softer now, perhaps it was only Woody Allen with a megaphone;

"In Mexico children are told that babies appear under a sombrero while the papa takes a siesta."

Illustration: A stereotypical sleeping mexican, wakes to a cry, removes his have an reveals a baby boy sitting on his head. I can say "boy" with confidence here, as the infant was anotomically correct and the anotomic was hanging in the middle of the Mexican's forehead.

Of course this was an entertaining video at 11. My favorite activities involved shouting "Poop!" and "Butt!" then giggling maniacally, for Junk's sake! But it also amusing me in hindsight. I understand some things now that I didn't get at the time.

God's voice again. "YOU MAY WONDER WHAT IT'S LIKE TO HAVE SEX!"

Woody Allen: "It's like jumping rope. You jump faster and faster until you can't jump any more. (insert cartoon girl jumping rope, growing more and more tired until, hands on her knees, she drops the rope, gasping for breath)

Woody continues: You may wonder why someone would want to have sex if it's so tiring. It's because having sex feels really, really good.

The best way to describe it is to imagine a sneeze. First it starts as a little tickle, then the tickle grows stronger and stronger until...

(Insert close up of a nose and lips.)

A grown female voice says, "ah...ahhh...AHHH...AHHHH....AHHHHHHHH.....AAAGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!

CHOO!!!!!!!!!!!"

Oh man! A sneeze... I sure haven't had a sneeze that good lately! Maybe I should skip the anti-histamines?

Purple Nurple

Wed, 11 Jan 2006 07:27:06 GMT

i thought it would be funny when i taught sky his body parts, to teach him to squeeze his booby and say booby... wellllll.... ummm... yesterday he gave mom, my friend, and me big purple nurples... squealing BOOBY BOOBY BOOBY!!! ... he was elated. Me? I am wondering what will happen when he visits Granny... yipes!

My Baby!!!

Mon, 09 Jan 2006 06:49:32 GMT

Sky is really catching on to a lot lately! I hear "Mommy!" "Mommy!" "Mommy!" all day long. He can count to 15 (kinda to 20, but he skips a few here and there and makes up some numbers like umpteen eeteen ohteen)

today i went to the store with teddie (my bro and law) i toted sky along cuz he loves to shop. He heard a little girl singing the alphabet, and he started singing with her. It was really cute.

on the 12th, he'll be the big three oh... my baby is getting so big!

PEE YOU K

Mon, 09 Jan 2006 06:32:40 GMT

been SICK SICK SICK... and not in the fun way... the puking woozy drowning in excrement way... sorry for that image, but it's how it felt...I was miserable. Aching all over and sick to my stomach. MOOOooooannnnn!

Buddy was a total ass, yelling and screaming at me, drunk, poked his finger in my face! I broke up with him.

Luckily the kids haven't gotten sick. Cross your fingers, y'all!

Coke Addict

Thu, 05 Jan 2006 01:30:14 GMT

Today just kinda drifted by. I am going to go on the protein diet and shed some of these pounds. i don't feel healthy. i eat too much sugar. i am a soda addict, especially Coke! Tomorrow starts the diet, that means no sugar and no bread ACK! let's see if i can stick to this...

I'm not about tryin' to get skinny y'all... it's just that i am all about being big beautiful and HEALTHY! I'll grab the bathing suit and do the before pic sometime this week.

red pensive

Wed, 04 Jan 2006 22:34:39 GMT

today, i had sky name the primary colors while paintintg with a twisted pipe cleaner. He painted a couple of pictures before he grew tired of it. there was some left-over paint, so i grabbed the pipe cleaner and painted over a sketch i had begun in my sketch pad. this is actually my first attempt at painting. it was very satisfying, and i think i've grasped a few concepts that i will use in future ventures.

Belly Teez

Wed, 04 Jan 2006 09:10:16 GMT

I have opened up my own little t-shirt shop. http://www.cafepress.com/bellyteez I just finished my first image.

BC Powders and other pretty things...

Wed, 04 Jan 2006 05:01:51 GMT

I had a head-ache the majority of the day... a killer one... know what southern mom's like to say about headaches? "If I had a head that looked like that and it didn't hurt, I would be worried!"

Ha! how clever, you say? whatever! Okay, so on headaches, they fuckin' suck! And I am not talking about a pretty little headdaches that throb oh-so-gently behind your eyes, people... i get those almost daily since i was a teeny bopper...

this was one of those little-gnomes-with-jackhammers-keeping-the-beat-with-the-torrents-of-blood-that-rushes-past-my-temples-while-sadist-beasties-bang-copper-cauldrons-with-metal-spoons-on-top-of-my-skull headaches. One of those "I wanna slap my mama for letting this head thru without a toll" type headaches.

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Well, you may have noted that among my mindless rambling, there floats the word WAS. Thank God. I feel so good that i must break out into spontaneous cyber song... James Brown now, y'all... though I prefer to think Eddie Murphy as James Brown, but it's YOUR imagination, abuse it as you will... if a real, live sweat drenched, California Raisen lookin' James Brown is what you want,well, don't let anybody tell you that you don't deserve it!

"I feel -GOOD -dah-nah-nah-nah-nah-NAH! I knew that I WOULD now! -dah-nah-nah-nah-nah-NAH! I feeeeeel nice, -dah-nah-nah-nah-nah-NAH! like sugar and spice now...-dah-nah-nah-nah-nah-NAH! i feel GOOD (good) so GOOD (good) ... I GOTTA YOU_EW_EW_EW! OW!!!"

So today has been kickasstic other than the headache thingy. i talked buddy into getting the money back that he had put toward a computer for me and i got a kareoke machine... it's a sucky one, but no big deal- i'll trade it in tomorrow. I also got the Pop Culture Trivial Pursuit... played it a little and it's kinda cool... 'course i love board games, 'specially ones that lead to discussion..

Big Beautiful Babies

Fri, 30 Dec 2005 14:39:30 GMT

I sketched this picture of my niece this morning...can u believe that people think that babies need diets? i remember nursing my son and being accused of under feeding him because i was over weight and didn't want him to be... i read an artical about baby diets...then again there are incidents that are child abuse in my opinion http://drphil.com/shows/show/183 what do y'all think? http://pediatrics.about.com/od/weeklyquestion/a/05_low_fat_diet.htm... crazy

Sex Test- this was fun, and it pretty much describes me...

Fri, 30 Dec 2005 00:31:08 GMT

... until it gets to the whole slave/master thing... i am not naturally submissive in bed, but i like being unnatural i guess! lol

TYPE P
You scored 100 imagination, 83 confidence, 70 dominance, and 62 generosity!

You are a KINKY, CONFIDENT, DOMINANT lover who prefers to give. This means that: You like relatively kinky sex, and you have the great imagination that will always keep your partner guessing and excited! There's no getting bored with you around, you could never settle for dull sex, you want something fun and new all the time. You aren't afraid to try out anything you hear about. You might just be an intelligent lover who needs to be mentally engaged, or perhaps you have some dirty dark secret kinky desires, but either way, you're never boring. You are pretty confident in bed. This means that you know you can please your lover. Maybe you've read a lot of sex manuals, or have the experience from previous lovers, or just tend to be skilled at whatever you get your hands on, but you're good and you know it. You can really get results and know that you have pure talent, so you won't be hiding away shy, pretending to be all innocent. Your partners love your naughty self assurance, you don't hesitate and this makes you a sensational lover. You tend to be dominant in bed, so you prefer to be the one giving the orders than taking them. Maybe you like the power, or just like controlling the pace, perhaps your partner likes to be dominanted, or maybe you get a kick out of the whole master/slave relationship, it could be something as small as liking to be on top during sex and tie up your lover to tease them, or it could be as kinky as them having to ask your permission to do anything at all. ( DEPENDS ON MY MOOD!) Either way, you are firm and you enjoy it! You prefer to give than recieve. This makes you a very unselfish lover, devoted to the needs of your partner rather than your own. You get your pleasure from seeing them get theirs, you are a model sex partner. I'm sure plenty of people would love to have someone like you in bed with them! Remember though that if your partner gets pleasure from returning the favour it's okay to let them, they might love giving as much as you do! WE SUGGEST YOU: get into some slightly more hardcore fantasy territory. Go for bondage in a not so light and fluffy way (NO WAY!) and discover just what you really like. Want to play master/slave games? Want to be tied up or tie someone up, in just enough discomfort that they don't quite relax?(NO DISCOMFORT!) Want to try a threesome? (BEEN THERE, DONE THAT :) Maybe you'd even like to try out sado-masochism.(ONLY RECEIVING and sightly FLUFFY) It's your call. Whatever you do, unleash that kinky thing you've always really wanted to try and give it a go, you're a great lover, and you know it, up for anything, generous, imaginative, confident, and happy to go for what you want, so enjoy.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 96% on imagination

You scored higher than 73% on confidence

You scored higher than 88% on dominance

You scored higher than 70% on generosity

Link: The What's your sexual style? Test written by lu-mina on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

nothin'

Thu, 29 Dec 2005 20:55:34 GMT

Wow, I've been drawing sleepers lately... actually, it's been a long, long time since i've drawn anything more than doodles while i talk on the phone... i dunno... haven't felt that creative urge i guess... i go months and months without drawing anything... then i hit something and draw and draw...

i am watching the craziest cartoon... about talking fruit... annnd these two hick bananas and a coconut are beat boxing fart and spit noises... the bananas put the Bling-Ringed fists together to spell "potassium" ... ha!

i wanna be a cartoon voice... that would be so cool...

Know what i've been doing today? nothing. just chillin' on the laptop at mom's. why? cuz my butt monkey boyfriend was yelling at me last night because he couldn't find socks (in a drawer, dear) and his brush was missing! whatever! he told me he works all day and i do nothing... let's see... i clean a home that houses 6 adults, three kids; 3mos, 1yr, and 2yrs old. (until this past weekend, now there are 5 adults and 2 kids)... I cook, wash enough clothes daily for him to wear one outfit to work and one after he showers at home ( plus for me and sky and sometimes some of the others), theres an almost empty bottle of lotion and a quarter of a bottle of baby oil on the nightstand that i use to massage his back, hands, feet, legs... every night... often in the middle of the night out of a dead sleep for his hands...

no. i do nothing. the other day he told me i was the sorriest person he'd ever known. considering his last GF turned out to be a Crack Whore, that doesn't say much for me... i'm so aggravated just thinking about this junk...

i'll be here at mom's when he gets home... let him see what it's like if I REALLY do nothing!

P.S. I still cleaned, though not as well as usual, but that was for me and sky not him, dammit! Grrr